Dino and I struggled with infertility for a little over 5 years. If you are on a similar road, know that you are not alone. You are strong, you have courage, and you have hope. This is our Infertility story.
Some journeys take us far from home. Some adventures lead us to our destiny.
Dino and I met while we were in high school. We were friends until a few weeks after graduation. I knew I loved him even before we started dating, which we did in June of 1986. After 6 years, we were married at 24. Goodness did I feel blessed to be marrying my true love.
Heartbroken and Infertility
When you are young, you feel like nothing can go wrong. We had always envisioned having a houseful of kids…I wanted 4!!! We started trying to have a baby a year after we were married. No pregnancy. I changed jobs to received better health insurance, and tried to do everything right. It seemed like everyone in the world was having babies except me. It was an emotional roller coaster, I blamed myself, Dino blamed himself. We fought more and cried a lot.
Still no pregnancy
So began our 5 year infertility journey. We started seeing doctors, doing various crazy tests, lots of ultrasounds and anything else that would help figure out why we could not get pregnant. Along the way, we learned that 1 out of 5 couples struggle with Infertility. Many undergo treatments, injections, and anxiety filled doctor visits for months and years. That certainly did not encourage us.
After months and months of taking my temperture and keeping track of my cycle, I started taking the fertility drug, Clomid. We thought this would kick things into gear but nothing happened except the more of the drug I took, the more it made me sick. My doctor scheduled an appointment so that I could start injections and IVF. There was a long waiting period just to see the specialist. Out of frustration and exhaustion, we decided to take a break.
God help us
We prayed a lot during this time and decided to put our worries to God, and something finally did happened, we found peace. We stopped worrying, we took a few weekend trips away, and we started having fun again. It was something we really needed to do for us.
More than a month later on Valentines day my doctor told me that we were pregnant. I don’t know if it was because of the clomid or us just relaxing and not thinking about it. We were overwhelmed with joy. On a beautiful fall day in October, our daughter was born. After 6 years of waiting for her, I couldn’t believe she was here! There is so much more to this story than you can imagine, but this is a happy post and I truly believe God works in his own time.
I know this is not the way everyone’s story ends, and feel so much pain for those trying to have a baby. It is something I will never forget. I don’t know why it happened for me, and I don’t know why I received this little gift. I have felt this blessing in my heart everyday, and have learned to trust in everything He does in my life, whether good or bad, God is always there for me.
Lydia is now in her early 20’s, at college far away from us but always close in our hearts. As for our big family, we are just perfect, the three of us.
Hope is always there. He is always there. If you are on this infertility jouney, I send you so much love and prayers. You are strong!
“God’s never early, never late, but always on time. Our timing isn’t God’s timing… God’s perfect timing does two things. It grows our faith as we are forced to wait and trust in God and it makes certain that He, and He alone, gets the glory and praise for pulling us through. At the right time, God will provide your need. At the right time, God will deliver you. at the right time, God will rescue you. ~The Reverend Bill Thomas, Baltimore Times
My times are in Your hands; rescue me from the hand of my enemies and from my persecutors!